Soro

Sat, 28 Apr 2007 23:32:36 GMT

MADNESS

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 05:33:36 GMT

so ok me and brathor were hopping around the internet by typing "rob liefield sucks" into search engines and I happened upon the strangest thing ever

http://www.silverbulletcomicbooks.com/rage/111195363490019.htm

if you follow that link. then look towards the bottom of the page you'll find a series of pages from a comic book called the godyessey.

in said comic while jesus is dying on the cross the olympian gods come to taunt him. Jesus then tears himself off the cross and starts beating the olympian God's physically.

this broke My mind and had me laughing for like an hour

how was something like this ever approved anyway

God i hate Rob liefield but his lack of talent always makes me laugh

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 02:34:34 GMT

Which Sailor Senshi ARE You?

You are Sailor Saturn!
You may be the one person in the group who blends in without really knowing it. You have the potential to be a goth. People think you are cute, and everyone loves the baby pictures of you. You may seem really lonely at times, and you've been known to be terribly shy. You may only have a few friends, but you hold them as close as you can. You've learned and understand the term "responsibly." What people don't know about you is that you really have a whole other side to your personality, which you don't show too often as it's almost like the opposite of your regular calmness. You have your own brand of strenght, that people admire you for. And lord know, for all your introverted-ness, people go completely DEFENSIVE on your behalf...you have the most determined fan group of them all. As for my advice to you, try to live life a little and don't let life live you.
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2 weeks

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 23:15:49 GMT

well it's been a bit since I posted but i've been kinda busy so i hope you'll forgive me for that. anyway here's the rundown of whats what In my world

Cameron has returned to DeKalb and is happy to be back it seems. While he was gone I "remodled" the room a bt to make more space and he seems to appreciate that (thanks to roy for his help)

Since then though I've been opening ralph's at 5 am that was for about two weeks and finally ended this saturday.

Doris returned and inevitably was pissed off for a number of days over a variety of things that went wrong many of which she blamed on me even though only one of them was really my fault.

on the subject of work i learned recently that not only is ray going away soon, the new guy,Roy, had his wife leave him and learned his father has terminal cancer and has 2 years to live. roy plans to move closer to his dad ASAP to spend as much time with him as he can

Kelly the last of my co workers will not be working at the store anymore once school starts.

this means I am the only employee left and I was about to tell Doris I was going to look for another job. clearly I need to hold off on that for a moment to at least let her recover and get her head on straight.

Anyway, saturday i went to WizardWorld chicago with Jeff. I saw mary there and I had fun but the thing is, i paid 25 bucks to get in and didn't buy anything. it was just that they had nothing there that i couldn't easily get somewhere back home so it seemed pointless. I did still have a good time though so i'm not really upset that i went or anything. however I DO loathe the people who think that because you walk past their booths that your interested in the 5 minute pitch about their comic and it's story. also there was a gentleman handing out "the worlds biggest buisness card" which was about 12x20 and in fact too large for me to have any interest in carrying around, not even to be polite

sunday we went up to chicago again for Belmont's market days. which is a day when they close off Belmont street in chicago and all the shops have a sidewalk sale. (belmont for the uninformed is basically chicago's "Gay-Town") I think though that I won't be going back next year, it's loud, overcrowded, and filled with drunks. in fact moving through the place is a challenge becaus elarge groups of shirtless people with booze congregate in the streets and flail about. I have had fun at this thing in previous years but this time it was just more frustrating than fun.

I have made a resolution to myself however that i am going to turn my life around starting this week. as such i have made a list of goals

1:Get a better Job
2:stop eating out so much (saves money and health)
3:start exercising again
4:try to get at least one page of my comic project done a day
5:pay off credit card
6:pay roy the money i owe him
7:finish the rooms improvements
8:get nicer clothes

there will likely be more additions later
so far so good on this

the weekend

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 16:42:31 GMT

well a number of things to talk about but the thing most heavily on my mind is some crap that went down at work this weekend

first on saturday i had the early shift. so the new guy roy is supposed to show up at 1 to take over. well he shows up but only to tell me that his daughter is sick (he thinks it's a urinary tract infection) and he has to take her to the doctor. well i'm annoyed but it is his daughter and she is a little girl (like 5 or so) so i didn't make a big thing about it and told him to go. now I had things to do this weekend to get ready for cameron coming home on thursday so i certainly wasn't gonna stay all day so i called up doris and told her what happened.

she had me call one of the other workers kelly (who didn't answer the phone and never returned my message) and since ray had the whole weekend off I called her back and explained again

her solution "well i'm not coming in i have stuff I have to do here (things, as she explained, that i could understand her not being able to leave in the middle of but she just said she wasn't coming) she points out that theyre going on vacation in a few days and "what would I do if they weren't there"

so basically I can either stay the rest of the day or abandon the store. i choose option c and ask ray to come in on his day off if he can (which he graciously did)

but i'm pissed off that I'm just expected to stay an extra shift because someone else didn't have their shit together

so then on sunday same situation roy doesn't show up at 1 so i start calling him and kelly trying to get someone in so i can go (i opted not to bother ray again on his day off) so no ones answering and I call doris. she tells me that roy has no working phone and that again "what would i do if she wasn't here" but says she'll come take over in an hour or so since she's out running errands

well she comes in but ralph the owner gives me crap over the phone that "doris already worked her shift and we kids need to work this stuff out on our own" i point out that i worked my shift already and that this situation is not my fault or my responsibility and he sticks to his guns saying "well we scheduled our day off so why should we have to change our plans because of roy" now I want to just yell at him here and point out that he thinks it's ok for me to change MY plans to run HIS store because he doesn't want to but thankfully he hangs up on me before i can get myself fired.

so yeah i dunno what was up with roy. it might be something with his daughter but if he doesn't have a good excuse he's on my list. so are doris and ralph right now as well

\well in other news I've been finishing up preperations for cameron's return this weekend as well he'll be back on thursday and I'm sure he's very happy about it

I also went and saw clerks 2 this weekend. I had a lot of reservations about it but it ended up being a pretty good movie (for people who liked the kind of comedy and stuff that was in movies like the original clerks) I really enjoyed it and had a good time

also i spent a lot of time on city of heroes this weekend because it was "double XP weekend" so yay. i got a charachter from lvl 1 to 18 in 3 days

finally theres going to be a production of little shop of horrors in town this october and auditions for it are tonight and tomorrow. I was in the play in high school and still know a lot of it from memory so i'm considering going to auditon but the thing is that i apparantly have to have a song prepared

what does that mean. do i need a karaoke tape, someone to play the piano for me while i sing? i dunno what to do here. and it's kinda making me think i shouldn't try out. theres also the fact that i have 2 jobs so rehersals would be tough so yeah I'm not sure what to do there

anyway gotta go
TTFN

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 04:45:37 GMT

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Sat, 15 Jul 2006 00:56:22 GMT

<td align="center"> Soro --
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Sexually stunning

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Doris hating

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 16:09:50 GMT

solast night i'm doing the last shift at work and as such I have to count up the lotto tickets we paid out on and set them aside with a total for doris

well doriswas in a bad mood yesterday and was bitching about a lot of things but this was my pet peeve

I always write the totals the same way "xxx" and then 2 small zeros connected at the top by a line to signify cents. this has always been ok but in her bitchiness yesterday she calls me over and complains that i didn't put a decimal point between the dollars and cents (which I've never done and was never a problem) so shes mad because she didn't know what the total was/ "looking at this it looks like we made 25,ooo dollars" she says

now I wanna say

"you fucking liar you know damn well theres no way you made 25,000 dollars" but to keep my job I smile and nod and come one step close to killing her someday

i kinda like this quiz

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 16:31:15 GMT

What Resides in Your Soul? (Anime pics, Accurate Results!!)

Intelligence resides in your soul! Your life is ruled by what you believe. If something makes sense, it is right. You may be a bit closed minded, so you need to loosen up. You have a strong sense of right and wrong. You are a perfectionist, and you may be a bit bossy. You come off as a strong person to people, and you know what you want out of life. When life throws you a curveball, you collaspe into denial. You are not very good at dealing with loss. You are very deidicated and passionite. Someone secretly loves you, but feel that they are inferior to you. You may feel like you don't need anyone, but you should open up. So many people care about you, if you only looked. You are a lovable person, but people may have a hard time finding this and therefor give up. Congratulations, and please rate!! ^^
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the weekend

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 03:42:51 GMT

Not much to go into but i figured I'd make an entry anyway. saturday the roomies went to LAFF softball and picnic but because of my work schedule i couldn't go so when i got off work i mostly spent the day hanging out on my own did some art played some city of heroes that sort of thing. so that was saturday

Today at work though I had a very strange situation come up

This old woman a regular comes in and hands me one of those 5 dollar bingo lotto scratch off cards and says "go ahead and check it but I'm sure theres not a damn thing on it" so I scan it and the machine tells me it's worth 100 bucks.

the trick is the way the lotto machine works is when you scan a ticket thats a winner it prints out a reciept for the customer if it's a loser it does nothing but if you scan a ticket worth more than 50 bucks it will ask you if you want to cash the ticket (in case you don't have enough money in the droor) so from the customers perspective there it appeared that nothing was happening and she already thought that there was nothing on this ticket anyway. so basically this was like the devil popped into the shop and was trying to get me to steal 100 bucks from this lady.

I didn't but all day i've sort of been half regretting it. though i suppose if I had i'd feel the same way or worse. in any case i'm kinda curious what people think. what would ou have done in that situation?

so anyway i got off work and we all went to see pirates of the carribean 2 which i liked but was mildly annoyed with in parts. and from there it was back home

I been drawing and city of heroing i watched my sunday shows "4400 and venture brothers) and i'll be going to bed soon

so yeah not a lot going on in my life right now but an update nonethless

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 01:21:12 GMT

((Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now. (I miss cameron, as well as some other friends)	✓ I don't watch much TV these days. (only a few shows that get tivod (tivoed, tivo'd ????))	✓ I own lots of books. (and comic books as well)
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. (my eyesight is terrible)	✓ I love to play video games. (yes yes I do)	× I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies. ()	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	× I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes. (more than just sometimes)	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (its that whole college to real world transition)	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

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× I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. (as such i will not reveal it)	× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times. (I once thought a pair of friends were driving me out into a field to kill me)	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now. (gimmie)
× I love sushi.	✓ I talk really, really fast. (i'm told it's a chicago thing)	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling. (my brother ryan)
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	✓ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. (for costumes only)	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
✓ I like the way that I look. (for the most part)	✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months. (sometimes it's unavoidable)	× I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings. (yes and no)	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	✓ I slept with a roommate. (yeah ^_^ heh heh)
✓ I have a hidden talent. (doesn't everyone)	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	× I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex. (well i am gay)	× I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
× I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone. (it is my only phone though)	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	✓ I've rejected someone before. ( i felt real bad though)
× I currently like/love someone.	✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (well i do have ideas but...)	× I want to have children in the future.
× I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	✓ I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn. (oh yeah)	✓ I am shy around the opposite sex. (not always but sometimes.)	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	× I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	✓ I enjoy some country music. (for a while it was all i listened to)
✓ I would die for my best friends.	× I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
× I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	✓ Democrat.	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
✓ I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now. (though I'm not proud of some aspects of myself)	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
× I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (eyes on the prize I guess)	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
✓ I hate office jobs. (with their dress shirts and their cubicles and water coolers and such ewwwwww)	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved. (mostly family though)
× I fall for the worst people.	× I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	✓ I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle.
× I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	✓ I talk in my sleep. (i also apparantly fight in my sleep as I have punched someone)
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	× I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	✓ I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. (my boss)	✓ I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	✓ I'm an artist. (technically anyway)	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	× I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible. (oh yeah)	✓ I love hugs more than kisses. (hugs are way more persnal than thet mwah mwah crap)
✓ I want to own my own business. (maybe)	× I smoke.	× I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
× Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. (more often that i'd like to admit)	✓ I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons. (not firearms but other stuff)
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
✓ I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone.	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
✓ I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear. (he is dead but it's more complicated than that. I mean more the idea of him and the kinds of things thinking of him makes me think about)	✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	× I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
✓ I have no piercings.	✓ I have spent the night in a train station or other public place. (airport)	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it. (during the angsty years)	✓ I like most animals better than most people. (

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((<a href="http://pyesetz.furtopia.org/meme-3col-DeathNote.html">Click here</a> to post your own answers for this meme.) <table style="background-color: white" border=1 cellspacing=0 cellpadding=6>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I miss somebody right now.  (I miss cameron, as well as some other friends)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I don't watch much TV these days.  (only a few shows that get tivod (tivoed, tivo'd ????))</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I own lots of books.  (and comic books as well)</td>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.  (my eyesight is terrible)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I love to play video games.  (yes yes I do)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I've tried marijuana.</td>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I've watched porn movies.  (<blush>)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I believe honesty is usually the best policy.</td>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I curse sometimes.  (more than just sometimes)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.  (its that whole college to real world transition)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.</td>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have broken someone's bones.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.  (as such i will not reveal it)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I hate the rain.</td>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I'm paranoid at times.  (I once thought a pair of friends were driving me out into a field to kill me)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I need/want money right now.  (gimmie)</td>
</tr>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I love sushi.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I talk really, really fast.  (i'm told it's a chicago thing)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have fresh breath in the morning.</td>
</tr>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have long hair.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have lost money in Las Vegas.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have at least one sibling.  (my brother ryan)</td>
</tr>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I was born in a country outside of the U.S.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.  (for costumes only)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.</td>
</tr>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I like the way that I look.  (for the most part)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.  (sometimes it's unavoidable)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am usually pessimistic.</td>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have a lot of mood swings.  (yes and no)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I think prostitution should be legalized.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I slept with a roommate.  (yeah ^_^ heh heh)</td>
</tr>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have a hidden talent.  (doesn't everyone)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have a lot of friends.</td>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex.  (well i am gay)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I enjoy talking on the phone. </td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.</td>
</tr>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I love to shop and/or window shop.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.</td>
</tr>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have a mobile phone.  (it is my only phone though)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I've rejected someone before.  (<noddles> i felt real bad though)</td>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I currently like/love someone.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.  (well i do have ideas but...)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I want to have children in the future.</td>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have changed a diaper before.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I've called the cops on a friend before.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I'm not allergic to anything.</td>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have a lot to learn.  (oh yeah)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I am shy around the opposite sex.  (not always but sometimes.)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.</td>
</tr>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have at least 5 away messages saved.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have tried alcohol or drugs before.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I own the "South Park" movie.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I enjoy some country music.  (for a while it was all i listened to)</td>
</tr>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I would die for my best friends.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have used my sexuality to advance my career.</td>
</tr>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have dated a close friend's ex.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am happy at this moment.</td>
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<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm obsessed with guys.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ Democrat.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × Republican.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I don't even know what I am.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am punk rockish.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I go for older guys/girls, not younger.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I study for tests most of the time.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I can work on a car.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I love my job(s).</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now.  (though I'm not proud of some aspects of myself)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have more than just my ears pierced.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I walk barefoot wherever I can.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have jumped off a bridge.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I love sea turtles.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.  (eyes on the prize I guess)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am proficient on a musical instrument.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I hate office jobs.  (with their dress shirts and their cubicles and water coolers and such ewwwwww)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I went to college out of state.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am adopted.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am a pyro. </td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have thrown up from crying too much.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.  (mostly family though)</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I fall for the worst people.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I adore bright colours.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I usually like covers better than originals. </td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I can pick up things with my toes.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I can't whistle.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have ridden/owned a horse.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I still have every journal I've ever written in.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I talk in my sleep.  (i also apparantly fight in my sleep as I have punched someone)</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I wear a toe ring.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have a tattoo.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.  (my boss)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I am a caffeine junkie.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I'm an artist.  (technically anyway)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am ambidextrous.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have terrible teeth.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I hate my toes.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have more friends on the internet than in real life.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have lived in either three different states or countries.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am extremely flexible.  (oh yeah)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I love hugs more than kisses.  (hugs are way more persnal than thet mwah mwah crap)</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I want to own my own business.  (maybe)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I smoke.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × Nobody has ever said I'm normal.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.  (more often that i'd like to admit)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.  (not firearms but other stuff)</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have played strip poker with someone else before.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I can't stand being alone.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm a judgmental asshole.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm a HUGE drama-queen.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have travelled on more than one continent.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.  (he is dead but it's more complicated than that. I mean more the idea of him and the kinds of things thinking of him makes me think about)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am a Libertarian.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I can speak more than one language.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I would rather read than watch TV.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I like reading fact more than fiction.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have no piercings.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.  (airport)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.  (during the angsty years)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I like most animals better than most people.  (<hugs the animals)</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I own a collection of retro games consoles.  (well they weren't retro when i bought them)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have hit someone with a dead fish.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am compulsively honest.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I dislike milk.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I obsessively wash my hands.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I always carry something significant around with me.  (i have a medicine pouch with important things in it on me)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.  (this happens a lot)</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I do not 'get' most comedy acts.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.  (not all of them anyway)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I don't like to chew gum.  (whats the point)</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.  (later than most people though)</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I love to sing.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have a custom-built computer.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I've gone skinny-dipping.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I've performed in three plays.  (more than that)</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I enjoy burritos.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm Irish and loving it.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I have a thing for redheads.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I am a twin!</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.  (this is a grey area because i do enjoy both)</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I sleep more than 12 hours a day.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white">✓ I need more time to myself.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I wish I was more open-minded.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I hope that I go really prematurely grey.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I download songs from the internet.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I say random things to freak people out.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I love playing Truth or Dare.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × Music helps me remember that I am not alone.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I think this survey is particularly long.</td>
</tr>
<tr valign=top>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I can only hate someone that I love.</td>
<td style="color:black; background-color:white"> × I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.</td>
</tr>
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Arts

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 17:26:39 GMT

hey there. all you furries out there know where to find my art. but for those of you who want the tamer side of my work i made a 100% smut free gallery on deviantart so here it is if you wanna go peek

http://sororabbit.deviantart.com/

Going Solo

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 15:58:32 GMT

Well Brathor my roomate has left to go back to his Family in Utah for a month (give or take) While i think this is a good thing on the surface (you know spending time with his family and other stuff like that) I am also sorta sad. So for the next month I'll be by myself for the most part. but I plan to write him and stuff. maybe we can get on city of heroes together and stuff.

for his own part Brathor is a little unhappy about going back mostly because he thinks he'll be bored senseless (apparantly his family lives sort of a distance from anything. Although they did tell him that he's gonna help them build a fence. Personally that would piss me off "hey son we really want you to come visit us....so you can build us a fence" now i know that I'm being silly and all but that still sorta rubs me the wrong way.

well on this side of things not much has been going on really. I've been making plan's in my head for a big surprise for Brathor when he gets back so that'll give me something to do in the meantime.

Today is the 4th so it's a national holiday and all but I still have to go to work anyway. The newstand is (stupidly) staying open all day and since Doris wants to have a BBQ with her family i'll be there all afternoon. (this is sad because i had wanted to drive Brathor to the airport and stuff but I couldn't)

I still have some commissions i need to finish from the convention as well as a few more that have just come in. if this keeps up maybe I'll actually be able to pay 600 dollars for playstation 3 when it comes out. (though honestly i'll wait a year i think just because I forsee this 600 dollar pricetag totally sinking the system in it's first year as a possibility)

on the 8th my family is having a party for my uncle dale for some reason or another but I don't think i'm going to go all the way out there just for that. mostly because i truly hate uncle dale.

Reason 1: when grandpa (his dad) was very Ill and wa were trying to get him into a hospice my mother (uncle dales sister) was taking care of grandpa AND doing all the work in terms of doctors and suce including working to get him into hospice care. the reason for this was because Uncle dale "couldn't stand to see his father like that" and thus took no responsibility for his care. Mom also worked 2 jobs (uncle dale BTW is retired) so when the phone call came that there was a place for Grandpa she was working and couldn't answer it. Grandma did and Uncle dale who decided that he thought Grandpa was doing better convinced grandma to turn down the spot. well grandpa got worse and since we couldn't get hospice care he instead died in a nursing home.

reason 2: recently one of our cousins was diagnosed with a malignant tumor on his neck and was going in for surgery. Uncle dale was one of the first to here about it and when he went to inform the rest of the family he couldn't do it all he could do was cry.

this Man pisses me off so much.
He's a spoiled whiny little speck of a man and i can't stand to be around him.

but i'm sorta wandering off topic here. so yeah i don't think i'm going to his party. i'll probably have to work anyway. speaking of which i better get myself together for work today

see you all later

"I'm the Triiiiiiccckster" (flourish)

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 15:24:55 GMT

Arcane Trickster
40% Combativeness, 60% Sneakiness, 76% Intellect, 41% Spirituality

Brilliant and sneaky: You are an Arcane Trickster!

Score! You have a prestige class. A prestige class can only be taken after you've fulfilled certain requirements. This may mean that you're an exceptionally talented person, but it probably doesn't.

Arcane Tricksters combine arcane magic with rogue skills and sensibilities. They use their magic to confuse their opponents or to augment their more mundane, roguish skills. If you thought it was annoying keeping an eye that that rogue, the Arcane Trickster is probably picking your pocket from the other side of the room.

Both smart and sneaky, you're probably the type of person that loves planning practical jokes... either that or knocking over banks.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 56% on Combativeness
You scored higher than 86% on Sneakiness
You scored higher than 52% on Intellect
You scored higher than 36% on Spirituality

Link: The RPG Class Test written by MFlowers on OkCupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 17:26:00 GMT

LIVE TRUMPS 1.1

watch Soro fight

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sad panda

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 17:21:49 GMT

for those in the DeKalb area that are interested near the corner of lincoln hwy. and annie glidden there is a man dancing in a panda suit to celebrate the opening of the new panda ezpress

i'm back on lj... maybe

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 19:06:47 GMT

I haven't updated this in probably more than 2 years but lately i've sort of felt like trying to do this again. we'll see if I stick to it or if i just dissapear again.

Since it's ben So long I guess a life update is in order.
Last summer I graduated from NIU.s Art program. it really wasn't a very big deal. In fact I sorta have the feeling they passed me just to get rid of me. People who read my journal before Know i had issues with a number of the professors at NIU and their mentality towards art. In any Case i didn't go to the ceremony or anything. at the time it was a pretty easy decision to make but lately I've been wondering if maybe I should have. I had decided not to go based on the fact that none of my friends were in the same graduating year as me, as well as the fact that it seemed like a lot of sitting around for that brief moment where you walk across the stage. I've recently been considering though that while I am one of two people in my family to graduate from college I never really felt that great about it. That is I never felt that swelling of pride your supposed to feel after finishing something difficult. the last day of school was pretty much that. no fanfare, buisness as usual, and i wonder if I might have had a better attitude about it if I had actually gone to the ceremony and sat through the pep talks and all that. In any case t's a moot point now.

I'm still in Dekalb, I moved into a house with 5 other furries. Brathor, Vidar, Artemis, D-Bruin, and Tigerfolly (though tigerfolly has since left) Brathor and I share a large room that is basically half of the houses second floor. it has plenty of space though i think we're utilizing it poorly. i'd like to reorganize and fix things up a bit but that takes time and money i haven't been willing to expend thus far, but that will likely change soon.

in the realm of working. I had a very brief stint as a pizza delivery driver. that ended quickly due to pagliai's policy of "we'll call you when we need you" which meant that at 10 pm on a day where I had been out doing yard work and was very tired I got a phone call telling me to come to work. this situation was unacceptable in my opinion and I quit.

next up was a brief stint at a quiznos the manager there kinda pissed me off though see she gets a salary on any day she comes in. but she was training me to come in in the mornings and do the books and all the paperwork and stuff to be her "#2" in truth i was basically doing her job AND my job and still getting paid standard wages while she would pop in for an hour and draw her full pay. plus food service sucks so I was eager to get out of there.

I had briefly worked at the village commons bookstore during buyback and made a good impression with my boss there. so when i was at quiznos I got a call from her she said one of her friends was hiring and asked if I was till looking for a job. happy to leave food service behind I took it.

So I've been working at her friends place "Ralph's News stand" The place is a 54 year old convienience store run by the oldest people EVER. The owner, Ralph. walks with a cane and is constantly on oxygen. and I mean CONSTANTLY. there are tanks in his home, the store and his car. he comes in every night to do the books and every night the trip from the car to the door almost kills him. he then has to sit down for 30 minutes before he can do anything.

Ralph has owned and run the store for 54 years and he doesn't want to give it up. i can understand that , and I can respect that but with his health the way it is He just Can't in fact though he is the owner most of the work is done by His wife Doris. whos is considered to be the real boss since she is there far more than Ralph.

Doris is an odd case. i simultaneously hate her and feel bad for her. I hate her because she is a crazy old bitch everything has to be done a certain way or it's wrong and she looks for things to complain about. but at the same time I feel bad for her because of everything she has to do for Ralph. the's up every morning to open the store at 5 AM generally she works till either 9 or 1 depending on what she has to do that day. then she's off to run errands take Ralph to doctors do yard work etc. and MAYBE get a nap in before she's back in at 9 to close the store with ralph. if i'm an optomist and say they get out of there by 10 PM she then has to feed ralph and get him down to bed before she can sleep that likely keeps her up till 11 or 12 which gives her between 4 and 6 hours of sleep a day EVERYDAY. so i can forgive her for being bitchy and a pain in my ass but all the same I still kinda hate her. it's a wierd situation.

All the while this has been going On i've still been doing Art

I've taken to regularly attending Midwest furfest and Anthrocon where D-bruin and I split a tabl in the dealers room. it's worked out pretty well for us so far. At AC 05 I sold a piece in the art show for 500 dollars. which blew me away. but i've not had that level of sucess since. all the same I generally break even at cons.

I've also been working with My friend mike on a comic he has been writting since we graduated highschool. it is my hope to finally get it up and going this year so as things progress i'll keep you posted.

I have my own comic idea that i'm working on as well as well as a few other projects. including an illustrated folio of one of Brathor's stories if he ever finishes it (nudge nudge)

other than that i'm just trying to find my feet as it were. i really need to get a better job but the trick is that whenever I consider it things start to turn south at Ralph's for example, right now ralph's daughter has just passed away so he's down in the dumps and one of our employees is leaving an a month wgich means if I left as well i would completely screw them in the help department. At the same time Ralph could literally die any day and when that happens I doubt Doris will be keeping the shop open. It's a volatile situation at best.

So that's my update we'll see if there's any more to come

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Sun, 12 Sep 2004 18:25:48 GMT

its been about a week since i last posted here. things have been moving along fairly well all things considered but today i'm in a bit of a mood.

Class is going alright but i haven't gotten critiqued yet. i imagine on tuesday when i do i will post a long entry about it. my mythology class is interesting but i find myself not wanting to go...ever. its a simple class and its only an hour but... its like just being in that room i can feel myself dying. i space out, i feel tireed and i constantly look at the clock. i wish i would have gotten the same class as cameron and the girls. it would have been a lot more bearable.

my tae kwan do class only meets on mondays so i essentially had a week off this week. i meant to practice but i didn't get around to it unfortunately. so we'll see how clumsy i am tomorrow at class.

swimming is getting easier but still takes a lot out of me. we're working on flip turns and such now as well as breathing and while i'm functioning i believe i'm at the bottom of the class.

in art class one with deborah i'll be being critiqued on tuesday. i made some art with my new copic markers and i'm actually pretty happy with it. however knowing deb and my past experiences in these classes no one will like it and i'll pretty much get torn down the whole time.

in art class 2 i am giving a slide show on tues of my work from last year. none of which is very good in my opinion but i'll do it and get it done. i also have to work on my stuff for her class since i haven't started anything yet and it's been 2 weeks. i HAVE worked but i haven't liked any of the results. this week i gotta get it together and do some work.

i got city of heroes and am quite obsessed with it. this has not helped me get work done but oh well. i play on victory server with a couple different charachters but my faveorite is named Brigandier. cameron makes fun of me because i have a big long backstory for my charachter. he's into the game as well and made a charachter called magi king.

been playing star ocean 3 as well and while its fun the voice acting is terrible. i'm not very far at all cause i got drawn into city of heroes but i think i'll get back on it soon

beenm watching wolf's rain with cameron as well. its pretty good but too much is left unadressed in m opinion

something else weighing heavily on my mind lately is Mike and Zen. i haven't heard from either of them.

well mike did send me an e mail with his new e mail adress but he didn't respond to me when i wrote him.

it's kinda depressing really. and in situations like this i find myself wondering if something i did drove them off. could i have been a better friend to mike, should i have been less forward with Zen.

in mikes case its been a week, in zen's over a month. i want to call both of them but i don't have mikes new number and while i have Zen's i'm not sure its right to call him. i find myself thinking what would i think if someone i chatted with online called internationally to talk to me. isn't that a little creepy, or a little obsessive.

at any rate i have to do something on both fronts or i'm gonna go crazy.
i AM going to find a way to call both if for no othr reason than to put my mind at ease. of course that seems a little selfish. it could be they just don't want to talk to me. if thats the case is it really okay for me to force myself on them.

well

"get busy living or get busy dying"

ultimately i guess i know what i'm going to do.

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Fri, 03 Sep 2004 05:13:17 GMT

well i'm not sure when my last entry was but i'll just fill every one in on what i did all summer.

i was in an internship for a company in colorado. overall i enjoyed myself but colorado is wierd. most notably the transit system there makes no sense. so anyway most of my summer was spent out of state. i was supposed to stay the whole time but i opted to come back a little earlier. i'm glad i did though i really needed the downtime, and i was glad to spend some time with my friends.

i was upset towards the end of my stay though as my best friend mike told me he was planning on moving to texas. though when i returned i found that he had changed his mind. (though a different problem has emerged)i also became good friends with a fur named zen and we got to be close but just as with mike a problem has come up.

school has started again and this semester is proving to be very taxing physically. i have a swimming and conditioning class as well as a tae kwan do class, and fencing club. all of these have kept me perpetually sore for the first 2 weeks of class though swimming is the worst. after our first skills test ( a 12 minute swim) i lost my breakfast and spent the next hour with a splitting headache and no energy.

otherwise i have mythology which is a filler class that is sort of interesting but nothing special and 2 art classes.

i'm modeling again too but because of my schedule i don't get to very often.

i'll have to find time to get stuff together for mff as well as finish a number of commisions i have promised.

so i'm pretty busy.

today however was a pretty good day until a few hours ago. I skipped swimming because i didn't feel well. i'm glad i did since i'm not sore for the first time in 2 weeks. the rest of the day was easy and i got back to find my new computer had arrived. (my old one died) so i was in a great mood then while i was settign everything up i got a call from my friend crystal who said she tried to call mike and was told that he left today for tuscon. i saw him less than a week ago and he made no mention of this. so he left overnight with no preperation no goodbye no warning and left things that he had borrowed from me in a box for me to pick up when i'm in town next. so thats uptetting and he better have a damn good explanation when i see him again.

i had also gotten city of heroes since my new comp could run it but the game does not support my video card so i can't run it. which is also dissapointing and upsetting.

and though it isn't something starting today it is still getting to me that its been a month since i last heard from zen. again no warning and no explanation. my e mails bounce and he hasn't posted art anywhere in this time either.

so i'm feeling pretty shitty right now but hopefully things will improve in time. anyway thats all for now

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Sat, 22 May 2004 06:16:53 GMT

at some point during the semester i got far to busy to update and i have no idea how long its been since my last one. but i'm feeling nostalgic and a little lonely tonight so this will be a long and probably overly angsty and self centered entry.

you want off heres your chance.

well i guess i should talk about school first.

honestly this was probably the worst semester of my career. grade wise i didn't do as bad as i have in the past. however... i feel that my work this semester was subpar at best and it was especially frustrating that no one liked anything i did all semester.

honestly if it weren't for the fact that i'm a year rom graduation i would probably leave niu . i've come to hate it so much lately. the administration seems intent on screwing me over. and no matter how hard i work my efforts get me nowhere and i am mocked by students and faculty alike. i recognize that i need to get better but i still feel that the profs are trying to make me a gallery artist when i am not going to be one. in any case i feel i've been to civil with them lately. i got through to charlotte with force and i think i need to butt heads with the others as well.

i also recognize that i need to improve and i will be working on that all summer. hopefully i'll have my good computer when i return as well so i can get to work on my big project.

everything is set for my living arrangements next year as well. i'll be staying in a nice climate controlled carpeted spacious (comparatively) room at university plaza, with cameron it'll be nice staying with someone i know and can get along with. after this last semester i dunno if i could handle another freshman.

moving out was a bigger hassle than usual this year. not only did i have mom to deal with i had roomie and his horrible mess as well. and he just sat there as i tried to clean and played game cube. i swear i hope he fails out next semester he really doesn't deserve a chance to come back let alone the financial aid he has gotten.

well that aside once i got back i was still pretty busy. i had friends to see and family stuff to do but 2 other big things on the horizon. one was anime central the other was my colorado trip.

anime central came first and i had to finish some art for it. as the previous year vicky and i agreed we would submit things the next year. well i finished it all and off we went.
now the flier i had made mention of an "adult section" of the show. seeing this i prepared a few things but as it turned out i was the only one with anthing for the adult section. that was kinda embarassing but another problem was that this small section was likely overlooked by passers by as those pieces were the ones that didn't sell. everything else i got at least minimum bid on and sold. i picked up a lot of stuff while i was there. i got

Fruits basket. i love this show and highly reccomend it.
the last of Revolutionaryy girl Utena. which is another fun show
Voices of a distant star. a short film done by one man and his mac that is also very good.

now all thats left is to go to colorado in a few days.

i'm excited of course, but also nervous and more than a little sad.

I WANT to go and all but...i also wanna hang out with mike.. I wanna play softball with bryan, i wanna visit kelly in the city. I want to go to the pride parade with the guys from college. i know i'll be able to do this all again but even still thinking about missing out on this time saddens me.

there are upshots to my going of course. but even still.

bah i'm just going in circles now.

i guess i should just go to bed now. g night all

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Thu, 25 Mar 2004 06:32:50 GMT

well as i wait for the latest layer of paint on my homework to dry let me tell you how i've beem.

class is going well but i've been pretty much swamped with work. at the moment i am learning to ink for my comic pageswhich was due today but wasn't ready resulting in me skipping class. i'm working on a painting due monday and a drawing due thursday. i will need to finish several more paintings FAST because i need to take slides of them for a class. and slides take a few weeks to get finished. i also need to find a way to matte some oddly shaped pieces in charlotte's favored hinge matte.

the situation is furthur complicated by roomie (who i briefly believed was not coming back after he was mia for 3 days.) he is really really pushing it to the point where i have to actively stop myself from just fucking hitting him. it's gotten to the point that i am happy that he may be leaving tomorrow to go deal with a suicidal friend. that maked me feel kinda awful though.

well in better news i sold a piece of mine on furbid and will hopefully sell some more. my goal is to raise some money so i can make an online purchace.

i've also gotten addicted to gaia
http://www.go-gaia.com which roy says is the gayest thing ever. but i like it so screw him.

anyay thats about all that i've been doing and my paint is dry so i must make it wet again bye for now

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 05:04:47 GMT

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